I’m sorry to break it to you. The unfamiliarity and pleasure was paralysing. Didnt realise he kept rolling and passing and not smoking any till too late. But was that experience better based on learning from my mistakes from the ex?
Movies and tv shows create all kinds of ideas about what first time sex looks like. Slipped and fell on it and it went right up his. Still waiting for the repressed memory that’ll explain that for me.